the pluto diaries: random

August 18, 2022

aint it a shame

when life's about to give u a whole world to explore but the one thing u really want is fifty-something miles away ?? u could meet every guy in the whole damn school but none of them would ever measure up to the 24 or 26-year-old (you don't remember) you met by chance on the internet of all places. even if you just desperately wanted someone close enough so it wouldn't be forever until you meet the love of your life and the second great love of your three great ones. of course you can't help that he's in between jobs and somehow doing less than you are as an unemployed almost student despite graduating what seems like a million years ago. and it doesn't make you feel that weird that one of his little brothers is the same age as you, it's not like it matters. he's the nice jewish boy you've always dreamed of finding but never believed existed until the last one, even though he turned out to be merely a friend. you don't want to be limited to the one man you're falling for even though you'd feel awful if suddenly one of your new college chums became your boyfriend before you even met him in real life. you think you love him but you can never be sure until you're in his arms